Been busy, trying to get on track but never try hard enough. Not in the feel of wanting to release some of my negativity to my blog, not in the mood of writing shit or maybe I am.
Update of my life, nothing pretty much changes since last post, (technically I am writing this as a future reference of mine, could be kinda a tracker to see what I was doing), I, yes still having the same three jobs, which I will never forget, I suppose because they are just too special, the first job in my life and the job I stay for more than a year (not surprise but still, definitely because I've got a good boss), the first full time job of mine, and the job that the past me will never thought I will ever encounter, engage and loving it.
Christmas and New year are both special this year cause mum visited, I never really express how happy I am when mum come but I am, I spent a lot of time with her, shopping eating casino-ing and more, in which, purely superb.
Me sitting here 12/01/2018 (11:15pm) the minute I am writing this sentence, finally got a break from work and sitting down to do something I used to love to do. Still make me happy, dedicate some time writing stuff that I would laugh at in the future is definitely worth it, believe me. I would be glad that I did update my blog, I mean a little bit. But technically this paragraph is redundant tbh.
I sometimes hate realization cause some of them hurt, a lot. Wasn't saying that I am blaming someone, but, a best friend of mine (not sure if I am still the best friend), like completely forgot about my birthday, not even a message after 9 days, I tbh forgot his too, but I wished the next day. Nyah, not blaming him, we are all busy now, and what can I blame on, distance, time, life, age, which separated us further and further. (Can't be bother checking my grammar, future me please critics on my grammar, it's okay). Ofc, wishing everyone I know is good and happy, sincerely.
Work life sucks, working something that is not my preference is worse, working just for money in some sense, the worst. Well, I am still doing it which means it hasn't hit my limit yet, but not far. It is always good to know more people and having friends, but wasn't the age that can take everyone as friend anymore, I can barely get close friends now, purely because it take ages for me to build trust, in which, in some case, I never will. God bless me, please let my best friends stay in my life and that's all that matters.
Okay, I assume I have enough bullshits here, future me, please be happy, smile when you finish this post, thanks yourself who wrote all these at the regular bed time of yours. Everything will be fine, I highly believe that. Believe in yourself.
