La la la.........

You know, sometimes I feel that Imma retarded in a way that "HOW AND WHY the hell am I doing this thing over and over again. 

Lemme think about it, Hmm. Yes, retarded. 

But at the end of the day, I am the one who wanna to do that stuffs you know. 

How many people have been telling me to let it go or anything like this. 

I have no idea why it never works since then and I am still waiting.

All I know is that, a bad thing, I don't even know what I am waiting for. 

I don't know how to actually defines what I really want, there are no absolute answer. 

Like a legit answer.

You know what, I wouldn't say the wait isn't worth, cause I am still waiting ATM.

I wouldn't too in the future, I assumed so. 

But I am really really really disappointed on myself. LOL. Haha. 

Take it easy. La la la.........